Dear Saba
it seems a long time that i haven't talked to you and i feel strange.
Saba, I'd like to feel your feeling but you don't let me know that, you think that i don't understand you, you think that i'm not eligible. Saba, why you regard yourself as a loser. It was strange, you guess my emotions toward you.you don't even ask me about it.
sometime i feel that you try to disguise yourself . sometime the words like "honey" seems artificial for me. it seems that they didn't come out of your heart. But you know, i don't like to believe all these, so i didn't believe that :)
i've always tried to guide my feelings in order to bring me freedom and comfort. sometime when you don't answer my calls, when you are sad or even angry with me, i feel sad, confused and obsessed. i know that the true love shouldn't be like that. i mean that i shouldn't be bothered from it. so i change my mind in a way that brings me bliss and peace. nothing matter, the important thing is that i love you. this feeling is what you present me and i'm so thankful to you saba. you're the one that has opened several windows for me to enjoy the sceneries. I've tried always to go beyond the superficial matters and get the concepts, relying on them.
i think that there is always a big barrier toward the genuine kind of human living. at least it's the case for me. mmm, by this i mean, sometimes my behavior or reactions has been strongly influenced by the common believes. i mean that, in some cases i feel sad because i think the true respond to the situation is sadness. i got this believes by watching movies, hearing the common believes of my culture, by reading novels and so on. but thinking more deeply, i feel that i'm only trying to be sad. the essence of all human beings is happiness. so why should i try to be sad.
in this way, nothing can annoy me.
a blissful person can present bliss to everyone.
one last thing, Amin: "take care of yourself", Saba: "I DO" , and i love your response. my dear Saba.
out of these topics, Saba, i brought my computer to downstairs. now i should buy a laptop for myself. the other news is that Bubik came upstairs, so i talked to him and we have great time with each other. i'll introduce you to him. he's a good friend. one other thing, today i kissed Bubik a lot, in every part ( Bubik has only a Big head :) ). I feel that i'm used to kissing ;)
that's all Saba
don't forget to tell me your dreams (of course the ones you want to explain)
i've forgotten to give you the chapter from Osho's book. the chapter that i've read.
Saba, tell me what is in your mind, in your heart? tell me everything.
Take care of yourself dear :)
:) thanks
-Amin-
۱۳۸۸ بهمن ۹, جمعه
From Amin To Saba
Saba
your contact with Ermia seems bothering for you most of the time. I don't know, maybe because of the harsh arguments you held. So I feel a little bit sad because i can expect a sad and obsessed or confused Saba after the talks. particularly at the nights. but no problem dear, i got accustomed to this way and just do what you think is right.
Wow, it seems that you decided to make a big change. That's good. But saba, try to preserve the positive aspects of your being. any change that makes you happy and blissful is fine with me.
we should always be honest and comfortable with each other.
sometimes i think our confused mind make the misunderstandings. We've overloaded the mind and .... . you know, sometime we deduce conclusions from a sentence, an act or etc. which are not right.
wish to see you soooooon
Hug
-Amin-
your contact with Ermia seems bothering for you most of the time. I don't know, maybe because of the harsh arguments you held. So I feel a little bit sad because i can expect a sad and obsessed or confused Saba after the talks. particularly at the nights. but no problem dear, i got accustomed to this way and just do what you think is right.
Wow, it seems that you decided to make a big change. That's good. But saba, try to preserve the positive aspects of your being. any change that makes you happy and blissful is fine with me.
we should always be honest and comfortable with each other.
sometimes i think our confused mind make the misunderstandings. We've overloaded the mind and .... . you know, sometime we deduce conclusions from a sentence, an act or etc. which are not right.
wish to see you soooooon
Hug
-Amin-
۱۳۸۸ بهمن ۷, چهارشنبه
From Saba To Amin
dearest
i dont know y i did nt see ur mail last night.
i m trying to be happy and not to think about futur and past, i decided to live the moment. i m not going to think a bout what would be happened.
i m not going to think about where am i going to and where u r going,i m not even going to think about ur leaving, and not about when i am going to see u again.
i dont want to think about my relationship with Ermia, i m going to give up every thing to him, i want to let him decide about the life with my conditions. i am going to make new friends and forget ur missing. i am trying to try solitude.
these were all the items made me upset and i m going to restrict them in a circle and feel free.
anything happens i will try to accept as the best event.
but tell me honey
are they bothering u? it seems that u are a little bit sad or anxious about i do contact with Ermia, is it?
ur writings make me so much happy,but it is sudden,because they are too short! like a little piece of candy.
take care
:*
p.s: love
i dont know y i did nt see ur mail last night.
i m trying to be happy and not to think about futur and past, i decided to live the moment. i m not going to think a bout what would be happened.
i m not going to think about where am i going to and where u r going,i m not even going to think about ur leaving, and not about when i am going to see u again.
i dont want to think about my relationship with Ermia, i m going to give up every thing to him, i want to let him decide about the life with my conditions. i am going to make new friends and forget ur missing. i am trying to try solitude.
these were all the items made me upset and i m going to restrict them in a circle and feel free.
anything happens i will try to accept as the best event.
but tell me honey
are they bothering u? it seems that u are a little bit sad or anxious about i do contact with Ermia, is it?
ur writings make me so much happy,but it is sudden,because they are too short! like a little piece of candy.
take care
:*
p.s: love
From Amin To Saba
Monday 11:30 pm
Sabaaa,,
sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
please don't feel sad,
:((
Monday 12:03 AM
Dear Saba
I tried calling you but i was unsuccessful. i should wake up at 5am and now is 1am. i need to hear your voice :(
SO where are you ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
i'll call you in the morning. i hope to see you tomorrow
Wed 10:10 PM
My dear, Saba
:)
you were happy on the phone. wish to have you like this from now on ;)
take care of the lovely saba
:*
Sabaaa,,
sabaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
please don't feel sad,
:((
Monday 12:03 AM
Dear Saba
I tried calling you but i was unsuccessful. i should wake up at 5am and now is 1am. i need to hear your voice :(
SO where are you ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
i'll call you in the morning. i hope to see you tomorrow
Wed 10:10 PM
My dear, Saba
:)
you were happy on the phone. wish to have you like this from now on ;)
take care of the lovely saba
:*
۱۳۸۸ بهمن ۶, سهشنبه
From Amin To Saba
To my dear, Saba
Today is a beautiful day. i'm sitting in my father's office, responding to your letter.
I hope that you will be successful in conveying your thoughts to Ermia.
Sabaaa,, Take care of yourself. i'd like to see you happy, fresh, and soon.
Tell me, what has gone between you and Ermia today? did you meet each other to talk about recent issues? what was the result of the conversation?
:)
Today is a beautiful day. i'm sitting in my father's office, responding to your letter.
I hope that you will be successful in conveying your thoughts to Ermia.
Sabaaa,, Take care of yourself. i'd like to see you happy, fresh, and soon.
Tell me, what has gone between you and Ermia today? did you meet each other to talk about recent issues? what was the result of the conversation?
:)
From Saba To Amin
dearest
what did i do with you? i had never seen such a literature from u
i had never seen any hopeless word from u
where is my strong friend? honey my situation is enough painful.
Amin,dear,there is only one truth in this world and it is love,this is my exact feeling about you,and the reason i m making so much problem 4 u and the reason of what did i do with u 2years ago.
i am feeling guilty for that time and i really really dont want to do it again.
my dear you had been so honorable. you make me shame
what do i have instead to give you except my love? and how can i remove or even hide it?
dearest your words are really worthy 4 me
the feeling you say is exactly what i feel,i had ruined every thing, i had mixed up you life and ruined his life. i dont have any thing to defend by.
i could never understand what is goihg on your heart,i really wanted but i could not but it did nt change anything in my mind.
honey just feel free, do what you want,and be patient, time will pass,and what happen is good for all of us, any thing happen,where ever u go,when ever it is, i love u so much.
this word of sohrab is always in mind in any hard situation: Be wide and lonely and humble and firm!...
your words always bring me peace and hope
i rely on you and i m happy beacause i m relying on a strong man,i know he can help me and he would nt be annoyed.
your leaving would be hard, leaving you would be hard
so let's not to talk about it any more
take care, be safe and dont forget u are a knight in my story
this is my special secret email
use it ever after
i have to sleep now tomorrow i have an appointment with my professor.
gd ngt petit chevaliere
what did i do with you? i had never seen such a literature from u
i had never seen any hopeless word from u
where is my strong friend? honey my situation is enough painful.
Amin,dear,there is only one truth in this world and it is love,this is my exact feeling about you,and the reason i m making so much problem 4 u and the reason of what did i do with u 2years ago.
i am feeling guilty for that time and i really really dont want to do it again.
my dear you had been so honorable. you make me shame
what do i have instead to give you except my love? and how can i remove or even hide it?
dearest your words are really worthy 4 me
the feeling you say is exactly what i feel,i had ruined every thing, i had mixed up you life and ruined his life. i dont have any thing to defend by.
i could never understand what is goihg on your heart,i really wanted but i could not but it did nt change anything in my mind.
honey just feel free, do what you want,and be patient, time will pass,and what happen is good for all of us, any thing happen,where ever u go,when ever it is, i love u so much.
this word of sohrab is always in mind in any hard situation: Be wide and lonely and humble and firm!...
your words always bring me peace and hope
i rely on you and i m happy beacause i m relying on a strong man,i know he can help me and he would nt be annoyed.
your leaving would be hard, leaving you would be hard
so let's not to talk about it any more
take care, be safe and dont forget u are a knight in my story
this is my special secret email
use it ever after
i have to sleep now tomorrow i have an appointment with my professor.
gd ngt petit chevaliere
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